My Struggles

i was in the bus last week Sunday and was about to go to Davao for the continuation of my review (the last part of the review was the final coaching) i was seated in the middle with ate Jing on my left side and Belyn was near the window. i was so bored with my life and was hell anxious because i know for a fact that the exam is just half way there. i am almost there. 6 sleeps to go.
i was at that time, listening to my collection of musics which was stored in my cellphone because i cannot afford to buy an MP3, so i settled with a much cheaper version of music.
along the way, as i was about to sleep, i heard the song playing and it goes like: "Jesus takes the wheel... taken from my hand, cause i can't do this on my own, and I'm letting go, give me one more chance, take me from this world I'm on, Jesus takes the wheel"
ok.. thats not the exact lyrics, its a carry underwood song entitled jesus takes the wheel. little did i realize that i was in tears and i settled myself by saying that, Jesus always takes the wheel.
before i took the exam last Saturday, i prayed to God fervently, consistently asking Him to guide me and lead me to the right path. that He may shower me with right words and wisdom so i can take the exam calmly and not shaking with fears.
the morning of Saturday was fine, i was sleepy but we all need to wake up 5 o'clock in the morning to take a shower, eat breakfast, and get ready for the exam.
when i received my exam paper and the answer sheet, i continuously prayed. asking Him to be with me always, as i said to Him:
"Dear God, i have come to a point where there is no turning back, here i am, seated on my chair, holding the exam that will make my life turn a 360 angle, thats it will either make me or break me. Dear God, i pray to You with an open and humble heart, asking for your guidance and divine light, i needed Your presence and please be with me to guide me all through out.
Dear God, i have done my part as a student, as a person with enough capabilities, i offer this exam to You dear God --- i offer everything to You, because i know its only You knows how my life will be --- shower me with graces, unfold me from my being weak. may you give me the license that i so desire dear God, the license that I'm asking You for the past months... ---"
then i recited the prayer which was made by our review center.
before the exam --- almost all sets (from 1-5) this is what i continuously pray.
after the exam, i felt better. i know He will be there for me. He will guide me. i believed in Him. i have prepared enough. read enough. learned enough. readied my notes and papers.
thats the reason why i gave everything to Him :)