i started crying 8 hours ago
feeling so fragile and so weak by the situation i am into right now
i feel bad and i feel like I've been fooled all over and over again thus, i look at it as endless excruciating pain.
a self inflicted pain that should have lasted for 8 minutes, but, to my dismay, it did not.
as i kept on telling myself:
writing is what i do best
but there are really weird points in life that when im about to start typing,
no words could properly describe the emotions that i have with in me.
i feel weak after wards and i even end up staring at the blank page of my blog and trying to imagine the whole situation and still ends up with nothing.
i started with the way i always do: listening to music, but still, theres nothing but complete emptiness.
this week, life's been weird.
there are really times in our lives that we feel like there's no turning back and you have to make a reason and a valuable decision at that moment
as i continue writing this, its killing me inside.
should i go straight to the point?
will i make any sense?
what will happen next?
so i was now listening to the good voice of the boyz II men as they sang that song I MISS YOU
and i was like feeling --- damn! is that song made for me? just for this moment? at this very moment. why should it be that way?
i started crying again.
life was never fair, i always believe that it was never fair since the day i was born
but i dealt with that confusion loads of times and it was fine with me.
got no problems with that.
people say you cannot have everything in life.
i have several failed relationship and i was cool with that.
it was never a problem with me since i walked in into the kitygb9623closet of love affairs.
but theres always that silly incident that one day you'll wake up and feel that oozing moment of silence and you feel like you've been betrayed and although you thought it would never happen again but there it was in front of you. its happening again.
isnt that very sad?
i was so into crying too much and few of my dearest friend cheered me up.
they were cracking up silly jokes just to make me laugh.
good thing it worked.
feeling so fragile and so weak by the situation i am into right now
i feel bad and i feel like I've been fooled all over and over again thus, i look at it as endless excruciating pain.
a self inflicted pain that should have lasted for 8 minutes, but, to my dismay, it did not.
as i kept on telling myself:
writing is what i do best
but there are really weird points in life that when im about to start typing,
no words could properly describe the emotions that i have with in me.
i feel weak after wards and i even end up staring at the blank page of my blog and trying to imagine the whole situation and still ends up with nothing.
i started with the way i always do: listening to music, but still, theres nothing but complete emptiness.
this week, life's been weird.
there are really times in our lives that we feel like there's no turning back and you have to make a reason and a valuable decision at that moment
as i continue writing this, its killing me inside.
should i go straight to the point?
will i make any sense?
what will happen next?
so i was now listening to the good voice of the boyz II men as they sang that song I MISS YOU
and i was like feeling --- damn! is that song made for me? just for this moment? at this very moment. why should it be that way?
i started crying again.
life was never fair, i always believe that it was never fair since the day i was born
but i dealt with that confusion loads of times and it was fine with me.
got no problems with that.
people say you cannot have everything in life.
i have several failed relationship and i was cool with that.
it was never a problem with me since i walked in into the kitygb9623closet of love affairs.
but theres always that silly incident that one day you'll wake up and feel that oozing moment of silence and you feel like you've been betrayed and although you thought it would never happen again but there it was in front of you. its happening again.
isnt that very sad?
i was so into crying too much and few of my dearest friend cheered me up.
they were cracking up silly jokes just to make me laugh.
good thing it worked.
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