how difficult is it to choose between loving and leaving? i was asked by this question earlier by my friend and i was like --- huh? is it really necessary for me to answer that question? we always have the choice --- the lessons we get from the decisions we've made are the answers to our questions, it may not be as specific as thought it should be, not that literal ABC, and yet it molds us to become more human. God has the reason for everything, you have the will to choose.
in regard to this topic, a dear good friend of mine told me that he choose the lesser evil for he doesn't want me to get hurt in the end and i was like --- then, he is hurting me now. he has the choice to spend time with me and it would be in Gods hand if He will take him away from me, but its a big consolation that we spent marvelous time together.
yes, he has something on him self, a certain thing no one would want and yet, i accepted it right from the start --- i took everything and i am willing to take everything, he didn't want that thing in him, nobody would want that. he was loosing all the hopes and he's fighting to live and all i wanna do is spent time with him all through out his battle.
yes, i was foolishly and emotionally hooked up with someone who doesn't even want anything to do with me, i was just so crazily in love with the idea of SOON and wasn't able to look at the present, the present that states, no matter how hard i pushed myself to him, it will not work, not in a million years.
yes, the truth hits like a stone thrown on my face. it was like more of a back hand slap on my face. a great smash, a powerful kick. yes, he lied --- and that sucks, and i was left with no choice but to fill the emptiness alone and fill the gap with in. stand up and move on from the exact place where i fell.
the questions will always remain as:
1. are you ready to gamble your heart and emotions?
2. will you be together for the rest of your life?
3. is there any assurance for eternal happiness?
4. how long will it last?
5. are you willing to it all?
there will never be any assurance of eternal happiness, because from time to time, risks are there, heated feelings are present, obstacles are rampant, struggles are visible, change of emotions can be possible, there are even no assurance that it will last long.
in conclusion, it was said that one cannot question the existence of feelings, they are there, raw, vulnerable and undeniable, but one can choose not to nurture what is felt, and yet no matter what they say, what was has been felt will always be more honest than what was chosen
in regard to this topic, a dear good friend of mine told me that he choose the lesser evil for he doesn't want me to get hurt in the end and i was like --- then, he is hurting me now. he has the choice to spend time with me and it would be in Gods hand if He will take him away from me, but its a big consolation that we spent marvelous time together.
yes, he has something on him self, a certain thing no one would want and yet, i accepted it right from the start --- i took everything and i am willing to take everything, he didn't want that thing in him, nobody would want that. he was loosing all the hopes and he's fighting to live and all i wanna do is spent time with him all through out his battle.
yes, i was foolishly and emotionally hooked up with someone who doesn't even want anything to do with me, i was just so crazily in love with the idea of SOON and wasn't able to look at the present, the present that states, no matter how hard i pushed myself to him, it will not work, not in a million years.
yes, the truth hits like a stone thrown on my face. it was like more of a back hand slap on my face. a great smash, a powerful kick. yes, he lied --- and that sucks, and i was left with no choice but to fill the emptiness alone and fill the gap with in. stand up and move on from the exact place where i fell.
the questions will always remain as:
1. are you ready to gamble your heart and emotions?
2. will you be together for the rest of your life?
3. is there any assurance for eternal happiness?
4. how long will it last?
5. are you willing to it all?
there will never be any assurance of eternal happiness, because from time to time, risks are there, heated feelings are present, obstacles are rampant, struggles are visible, change of emotions can be possible, there are even no assurance that it will last long.
in conclusion, it was said that one cannot question the existence of feelings, they are there, raw, vulnerable and undeniable, but one can choose not to nurture what is felt, and yet no matter what they say, what was has been felt will always be more honest than what was chosen
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