so ive been terribly insane this past week. feeling confused (the usual) and feeling so negative of almost everything that i do. so it aint good. i know that matter-of-factly. been doing lots of insane things that led me to having low self esteem and low morales. everything just crushed instantly and little did i noticed it. working in the new environment is something i am into right now. hospital work is terrifying and it has made a great non-substantive effect on me. as often being told by the many, things happen for a reason and i guess, it always does. one wrong move could prove something horrible. so as a nurse, i have to keep things uptight and straight so things will fall into place.
i have this one 10 month old patient who looks extremely fragile and having diagnosed for having a Kawasaki’s Disease (KD) which is defined as an (1)acute febrile illness of infants and children in which redness of the mucous membranes, skin and tongue are associated with swelling of the hands and feet and subsequent desquamation (peeling of the skin) of the hands and feet. Other signs include swollen lymph nodes of the neck (cervical lymphadenitis), redness and swelling of the eyes (conjuctival congestion), sores in the mouth (stomatitis) and swollen lips (chelitis). After a week or two the skin of the hands and feet begin to peel starting around the nails. Upwards of 20% of patients develop coronary artery complications, however most patients have uneventful recoveries without any long term problems.
having seen how the child fought for his life and how miserable the mother looked, thin and pale and still keeping that little emotion for her little one, the father looked terrible too, but he kept himself composed and looked strong though worries is visible in his face.
in nursing school, we were taught that what should be give out empathy and never sympathy, but after looking at the kids' condition, all red and lying on bed with high degree of fever, i never felt so weak. i stared a moment or two at the mothers face and all i saw was fear and great love for her kid. i gave out moral support to the parents saying never to loose hope and i continuously prayed silently for the kids health that he'll get better.
i have this one 10 month old patient who looks extremely fragile and having diagnosed for having a Kawasaki’s Disease (KD) which is defined as an (1)acute febrile illness of infants and children in which redness of the mucous membranes, skin and tongue are associated with swelling of the hands and feet and subsequent desquamation (peeling of the skin) of the hands and feet. Other signs include swollen lymph nodes of the neck (cervical lymphadenitis), redness and swelling of the eyes (conjuctival congestion), sores in the mouth (stomatitis) and swollen lips (chelitis). After a week or two the skin of the hands and feet begin to peel starting around the nails. Upwards of 20% of patients develop coronary artery complications, however most patients have uneventful recoveries without any long term problems.
having seen how the child fought for his life and how miserable the mother looked, thin and pale and still keeping that little emotion for her little one, the father looked terrible too, but he kept himself composed and looked strong though worries is visible in his face.
in nursing school, we were taught that what should be give out empathy and never sympathy, but after looking at the kids' condition, all red and lying on bed with high degree of fever, i never felt so weak. i stared a moment or two at the mothers face and all i saw was fear and great love for her kid. i gave out moral support to the parents saying never to loose hope and i continuously prayed silently for the kids health that he'll get better.
one more problem that the entire family is shouldering is the fact that the hospital bill is sky rocketing and they hardly had enough money to buy a less expensive medicine. all of us in the nurse station felt bad about the families condition and yet we were helpless. one regular nurse helped out by buying a medicine out from her own pocket just to keep the temperature of the child low.
i never felt such vigor running in my extremes. too strong emotions and such intensity. for a moment, i ran at the nearest comfort room to breathe as my tears shed. i prayed so hard for the child's condition and i never felt so helpless.
the next day, i was told that the family decided to transfer to a public hospital which has less hospital expenses and less medicine price. less professional fee, less accommodation and fee, and i just wish that it wont be less service from the doctors and nurses.
now i wonder, if HEALTH IS A BASIC HUMAN RIGHT, why is it that there are still people who are deprived from such right? who is then should be blamed?
(1) http://www.aocd.org/skin/dermatologic_diseases/kawasakis-disease.html
i never felt such vigor running in my extremes. too strong emotions and such intensity. for a moment, i ran at the nearest comfort room to breathe as my tears shed. i prayed so hard for the child's condition and i never felt so helpless.
the next day, i was told that the family decided to transfer to a public hospital which has less hospital expenses and less medicine price. less professional fee, less accommodation and fee, and i just wish that it wont be less service from the doctors and nurses.
now i wonder, if HEALTH IS A BASIC HUMAN RIGHT, why is it that there are still people who are deprived from such right? who is then should be blamed?
(1) http://www.aocd.org/skin/dermatologic_diseases/kawasakis-disease.html
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