Wounded Soul

"DONT BE FOOLED BY THE LAUGHS,
OR THE JOKES THAT I CRACK,
BEHIND THE LAUGHTERS, LIES A WOUNDED SOUL;
A WEAKEN HEART THAT NEEDS SOMEBODY TO SHARE THE THOUGHTS WITH" -- jet2

with only 1 hour of sleep and a letter with a problem boomerang in front of me, how can i not push and pull my thoughts?
i was trying to sleep with my mind half awake and yet i could not sleep peacefully.
the phone rang and it was my sister, talking about the matter.
i was about to sleep again and i thought i need to inform ate jing about what our ate told me.
and she was like, you do this and you do that, and do this first before you sleep.
i did what she told me and went there and i got nothing.
my mom holds the key to unfreeze what is frozen.
i cried as the water flows in my face as i took a bath.
when problems occur, they hit hard. hard enough to shaken my world.
not just mine, but the whole family.
i just hope and i just pray that as i write this and as my tears fell in silence, i prayed deeply to God that this will be soon over --- i will offer everything to Him as what i always did in times of crises.
Christmas wont be a merry lil thing --- thats for sure :(