it was boredome that brought me and belyn to the conclusion to go out and enjoy since it is friday night and we wont have review tomorrow and i wont be doing anything than wash clothes and read on any article concerning the medical - surgical nursing.
i was in this moview theather and i was so like having so much enthusiasm since the actor on that flick was so freaking good looking --- yeah! it was john lloyd cruz and he was so good looking -- ok fine, i admit, the child in me.
ok -- here goes my drama. popoy is an engineer, and basha is the architech, they work together on the same office, went on the same school in college and had their relationship for 5 years. while i was watching the movie with less emotions in my heart, i can feel what the actress --- bea alonzo --- aka: basha --- felt. that tingling little feeling of being "tired". tired because she felt that the relationship isn't moving and is stagnant. the relationship is not growing when it is suppose to grow. she felt tired because she is doing the same things all over and over again.
but when she left popoy ( john lloyd cruz) on the movie with the main reason of feeling choked with the relationship perse, the reason of being tired of her being so attached with popoy, the reason is that, she isnt growing personally and her life for 5 years has been so stagnant with her relationship with popoy, and her main reason is that she is tired because she is unhappy with her present job and for popo's being so incontrol and possessive.
i can really feel her and actually said "the same" line when i have a long speech with who ever i am breaking up with... hehehe... she said: "hindi ko alam kung tama ba itong ginagawa ko, pero alam kong kelangan ko tong gawin" yeah! so gay-ish, oh so mellow dramatic, but in real life, someone have to say those words. i even said: im unhappy of the relationship because i think this relationship isnt going to work out anymore. but i didnt say: i dont love you anymore.
when basha broke up with popoy, i can also feel how popoy felt, how popoy suffered from the un expected event / change in his life and he was so devastated of how his 5 long year relationship ended.
but moving on...
i was so hit with what derek ramsay said on the movie: he said:
"mas nakabuti na naghiwalay kayo because it taught you how to love yourself a little bit more. minsan, kelangan ng dalawang tao maghiwalay, for them to grow. it takes two mature people to make a relationship work"
or yeah, maybe something like that, i was so also hooked with derek's macho gwapito look.
(derek plays one of the office mate of basha --- but i forgot his screen name though)
in the middle of the story, while popoy and basha was out of each others arm, popoy met this beautiful lady named trisha, played by maja salvador. she plays a girl whom popoy met in a bar since she was working there as a singer. she plays gig along with her band, she was talented and she kept on writing popoy a poem and later made him a song.
it was sad that when basha realized things are different now because popoy have already had trisha and she was left alone with no one she felt unhappy being alone and seeing popoy happy with someone else. and though she thought she will become more happier with her so called: "new life", without popoy tagging along with her all the time.
what made me cry the most is when trisha and popoy was talking after having their dinner --- and she said: "mahal mo pa ba sya?" and he said: "ayaw konng makitang nasasaktan ka" then she closed popoy's eyes and said that he should try close his eyes for him not to see her hurt and asked him with the same question and he said: "sorry"
gosh! with all the mized emotions trisha had that moment, i can really feel that too. hahaha
before the movie ended, popoy accepted the offer of working in qatar and he was there for 2 years, before he left, he found basha sitting on a bench in a soccer field where he and basha used to sit when they were still in college.
as they talk he was vocally saying: "sana tayo na lang.... sana tayo ulit.. pero... "
gosh! the BUT thing was so freaking heart aching since he was so sincere in saying that he too needed space for him to find his old self, the one that was not shattered with the pain basha caused him when she broke up with him, the one who's firm, the one who's more happy and out going, the old one whom basha loved.
the movie ended with basha and popoy getting back together --- hahaha --- freak!
the morals of the story: NONE... hahaha
i relayed this story because i feel the urge to say this:
im sorry for miss L for causing her pain --- on the character --- she was trisha. in the real scenario it was her choice to love a man whom she know and she leaned to love though that man loved someone else and she took the risk, and she failed to get into his heart because it already belonged to someone else.
i was just sorry that until now she was still too bitchy and she cannot forgive me. hahaha... it was her choice that made her what she is now. and though she claims that shes ok --- transparent as she always is --- she aint ok. and she will not be ok not until she will accept to her self that it was her own choice that failed her.
my moral lesson for my self:
it was his choice to break up with me because he felt unhappy and confused of whom to choose, me or miss L. it was my choice to accept his humble goodbye and though i often find myself regretting the decision that i made, i stood up for it and proved to my self that things can never be the same again.
it was sad fate that when he learned that he loved me and wanted to get back to me, i was with someone else already --- and though i know to my self that i still love him --- i cant have him no more. im just too coward to have him back because i know to myself that theres that fat chance of me getting hurt again when he becomes confuse again.
it was my decision not to get involved with him. a decision that until now, i do not know if it is right, all i know is that i have to do that for me to grow personally :) bwahahaha :)
if only im brave enough so that i can say: CAN WE HAVE: "ONE MORE CHANCE?"
this sums up all the things :) --- a tribute to my old chat addict self :)
PS: pasensya na po kung mali mali ang litanya ng mga salitang nabigkas ng mga artista sa pelikula --- basta --- the same ang thought :) bwahaha... past 12 na kasi... :(
