missing the old ME

ive been trying my hardest to collect my clattered thoughts and the hardest part of it is putting it all together just to make sense. the mixed emotions and the unstable thoughts are getting the best out of me that i did fall on the trap and here i am, in the world of unknown and so unsure about myself.
i just wish i had enough energy and brain cells to continue keying letters on the keyboards. i wish i had enough strength to carry on with the stress i am into right now.
i missed the old me. i so do.